Late February, and we are having an Artic Wave of weather coming through our area. I love the crispness of this time of the year...especially, if I am cozy inside by the stove, with a good cup of hot tea, and often, a good book.
Today, was one of those days. I took my time today, and did just what I wanted...reading several articles I had set aside and marked in different publications. Something I have had on my "to do" list for much too long. It felt good to have the time to"just be" with myself.
The last several weeks has tested my strength of character,and emotional boundaries. I watched a friend survive having a kidney removed due to renal cell carcinoma, and end up with Congested Heart Failure. Each day I have watched the 'progress' and needed a day to hear it from a distance. Talking with the nurses today, and knowing everyone was doing their part, I could relax for the first time in many days....Knowing there is a Oneness of All Knowing taking care of the bigger picture~! Thank YOU for the Snow...I needed this picture, to reflect the many Blessings I have each day to explore more of who I truly want to be when I grow up~!
I am so thankful for a day to 'think' of our gifts, and how special we each and everyone are to the big picture...It is not easy for me to accept some of my family birth or not, some days, barely myself...but I am shifting my outlook, as there are less and less of my age group to communicate with, and I don't want to loose myself in the picture~!
Being a caretaker to others, is often a road that too many travel without healthy boundaries. Been there done that, way too many times. I have grown in this relationship, and found new parts of self, to open doors to...on both sides...no longer an enabler to my friend, but a solid rock of support....and better friend to myself for taking a step back, and day off. My husband enjoyed having a 'home cooked' meal tonight~! That was nice...sharing a meal and being together in the evening, for a change. I had missed that special time of sharing, as Glen's schedule and mine are very different these days.
I have learned to not take a moment for granted...time is a wonderful gift~!
Time to close the damper on the stove and nestle in for the night...Lake Cassidy is on the quiet side of a Bright Moon above the Cascade Mts View~!
